All I want is zero barrier

Today's prayer

It has been years since I kept a distance from him.
I know this isn't right, and I definitely have failed God's expectation on me.
I know I have failed my spirit too.  

Perhaps, I'm not late for my sins.
Allow this to be my prayer tonight:

" Let there be zero barrier between me and my God Father for I'm so weak and poor. Strengthen my heart with your love as I need it so badly. Make me to be humble before knowledge, before your punishment. Tonight, please send me a heart of passion to seek for you."

Genesis [chapter 1: 1-5]

The Beginning:

Chapter 1: 1-5

1 In the beginning God created the heavens and the earth.
2 Now the earth was formless and empty, darkness was over the surface of the deep, and  the Spirit of God was hovering over the waters.
3 And God said:" Let there be light," and there was light.
4 God saw that the light was good, and he separated the light from the darkness.
5 God called the light 'day,' and the darkness called 'night.'And there was evening, and there was morning--the first day.

I remembered this was the verse where sister Bailu shared to me about a year ago.

She said:"Our God is smart, don't you think so? If I were Him, I would never be able to give a name for every creatures I created!"

Yeah, you're right. Neither do I.
That's the reason he is our God. 

2013年 我的起跑线

也许，只有在这一天，我们都会开始反思吧。
这也难怪，一年就快这样从此说再见了。

我活过来了，你熬过来了。
这一年过去，我做了什么，我都不知道。
我像是有短暂失意症的家伙，一时半时不能想起。
若真要恢复记忆，那我得重新再走过我的人生了。

我想，大概没这个必要。
毕竟，一切早已成为过去。
因时光而流失的，不再垂手可得。
 
今天，我去了商店一趟。

老板娘：“好快啊，明天就2013了，我又老了一岁。”

在旁排队的我无心地笑了一下，很明显老板娘并不是对我说的。

AuntyA：“是咯，又老了一岁。”
我：“哈哈，我也是啊，我也老了！”
老板娘：“哎呀，不能说我老了，应该说我又壮了一岁，你们就大了一岁。”
我：“呵呵。”

年纪大了，可见我们都改口说 ‘老了’ 而不是 ‘大了’。

我的心 停了0.5秒

不知为何 最近的我像个闹钟似的准时起床
迟睡反而更早起身了

今天早晨的心跳 跟以往的不一样
她 停顿了0.5秒

我感觉到 那瞬间的停顿
真的好不寻常

心突然停下 然后多跳两下
就这样跳着 重复了有三回
我躺在床上 久久不敢移动

也许 是我的恶梦让我停止了那0.5秒

我突然好害怕 心会从此停下
因为我还没做好离去的准备

这一刻的呼吸 我真是感恩