Dear korkor,
I have lots to tell you but sometimes it's just hard to say it out. And, whenever I have the time with you guys, all I want is just to be 'together' with you all.
Remember, do keep it in your mind always:
I do care about your feeling.
I concern about your future.
I respect you just because you're my the only eldest brother.
Maybe through my writing you can understand better. And, that's the main point.
I got my result today. That's a great disappointment to me. Getting a GPA score of 3.5 for the 1st sem and 3.2 for the 2nd sem. So, in average, I got only 3.3 for the whole year. Targeting to maintain the GPA scores at first but the result released today proved that I failed. I have been always tried my best whenever I can but maybe I'm just not smart enough. Yeah, it could be. Just as simple as I'm not smart enough. But, I can't value my intelligence through this way though. It's not fair to me! What can be an explanation for this would be the way I used to study. I have to study smart instead.
"No shortcut to be success."
I'm pretty sure that you know it very well too, ain't you? But, what really matters is that do you really apply that in your life? Maybe the career is not your dream work; maybe the life you wish is different from what you have now. But you are meant to make differences and changes to your own life because you're responsible for your own life. Family members will always be the one who support you always. So do we. Maybe parents will disagree with the plan you have in your mind but it doesn't means that they don't support you. It's just because they don't want you take the risk.
"Never allow your emotion rules you."
Control your emotion well because you are the master.
THINK TWICE
before you angry ,
before you give up,
before you lost trust in your friends & family.
I have very bad tempered before,
I showed black faces to my family members,
I showed my dissatisfaction by yelling loudly at them.
Now, I realised how childish am I was.
I thought of what mummy talked to me before.
'I never owe you. Don't ever you give me that kind of black faces.'
Mom was right. Taking care of a child wasn't that easy as what we imagined. How much effort and golden teenage time she has sacrificed for us? Think over it.
Though daddy is strict to you since young, but you know what? He wants you to have a comfortable life. He don't hope to see his child stepping the path he took when he was a teenage. Never did our grandparents told him what shall he becoming in future. He works just to gain a more comfortable life for family. And, you, are the motivation for him to gain a comfortable life. You might felt that daddy has always been having high expectations on you and you are tired for that. If you wish to become a business man, then, trust me, equipt yourself with knowledge related to the field. On economics? On saving? On investing? Anything you find you're interested to. Read on books on how to be success too. Be mature in your mindset. Think further and look further! The world is realistic. Time will mould you, and, when the time comes, you will understand.
What important for now is equipt yourself with knowledge. Socialize with the elderly and gain advices from them. After all, learn and apply them. Experience will mould you to become more mature. Step by step, because ther's no short cut. Little by little too, save your hard earned money. Parents can be supportive but you must be 100% confident in what you planned. 100% confident that you have enough experiences where ther'll be a returning on what you invested in.
And, lastly, you should be glad that our parents never abandon us.
Be grateful because:
at least our daddy is not a drinker,
at least our daddy is not a drug abuser who torture us!
Sister,
qian
