Success will follow nobody unless I keep myself strong.
Friday, 18 January 2013
If this is my life
Success will follow nobody unless I keep myself strong.
Tuesday, 15 January 2013
我认得你
真的很难相信，仅是在巴士上的一面之缘，我们又见面了。
早上你准备去上班，我准备去上学。
傍晚，你回家，我回家。
你穿着苹果绿的上衣，就坐在我旁边。
早上，你没说话。
只是，刚刚你又坐在我旁边了。
你瞄了瞄我手上的书本然后就开始对我说话了。
“owh, Nursing in NP?”
“yeah, correct.”
“I have a friend(lecturer) in NP too! XXX, do you know her?”
“No. I don’t.”
下车前，你还特地给我说声祝福语。
这种从素不相识得来的祝福，对我来说，很特别。
你上巴士的那刻，我只知道，我认得你。
早上你准备去上班，我准备去上学。
傍晚，你回家，我回家。
你穿着苹果绿的上衣，就坐在我旁边。
早上，你没说话。
只是，刚刚你又坐在我旁边了。
你瞄了瞄我手上的书本然后就开始对我说话了。
“owh, Nursing in NP?”
“yeah, correct.”
“I have a friend(lecturer) in NP too! XXX, do you know her?”
“No. I don’t.”
下车前，你还特地给我说声祝福语。
这种从素不相识得来的祝福，对我来说，很特别。
你上巴士的那刻，我只知道，我认得你。
[ 你就是那位，the lady in 苹果绿 ]
Monday, 14 January 2013
国籍 问题 何时了
就算你不说，我还是会感觉到的。
开玩笑的程度，应该要有限度的。
同样的问题，只是我在另个国家。
这个世界究竟发生了什么事，人与人之间究竟还能用什么言语来沟通，我也不知道了。
我发现，言语的起点，不再是了解、而是伤害。
开玩笑的程度，应该要有限度的。
同样的问题，只是我在另个国家。
这个世界究竟发生了什么事，人与人之间究竟还能用什么言语来沟通，我也不知道了。
我发现，言语的起点，不再是了解、而是伤害。
Sunday, 13 January 2013
谁对谁错，这重要吗？
心很想说话，可她却不知该从何说起。
那天晚上，地球仪被扎了两下，原是洁白如雪的心灵，瞬间被染红。
两个地球人，很是受伤。
两颗心，‘啪啦’了一声。
她们的心，在淌血。
‘从几何时我们的频率不再一样’
没有标点符号的句子，实在耐人寻味。
我走在寻找答案的迷宫里，很是迷茫。
我很努力地给自己想出一个出路，一个对我、对你都满意的答案。
找了好久，我还是找不到，因为我发现迷宫只有一个出路。
倘若我在迷宫的起点遇见了你，那么我的终点或许是你。
你一度想保护的朋友，是现实的我。
我的变化，实在很抱歉，因为惟有这样我才能保护好自己。
若你不能接受这样的我，我无所谓，因为我也很明白。
毕竟，我不能强求你接受那么现实的我。
那天晚上，地球仪被扎了两下，原是洁白如雪的心灵，瞬间被染红。
两个地球人，很是受伤。
两颗心，‘啪啦’了一声。
她们的心，在淌血。
‘从几何时我们的频率不再一样’
没有标点符号的句子，实在耐人寻味。
我走在寻找答案的迷宫里，很是迷茫。
我很努力地给自己想出一个出路，一个对我、对你都满意的答案。
找了好久，我还是找不到，因为我发现迷宫只有一个出路。
能从迷宫里走出来的，只有一个；
永远被困在迷宫里的，也只有一个。
你一度想保护的朋友，是现实的我。
我的变化，实在很抱歉，因为惟有这样我才能保护好自己。
若你不能接受这样的我，我无所谓，因为我也很明白。
毕竟，我不能强求你接受那么现实的我。
Thursday, 10 January 2013
该死的天真
一句怎么办，解决不了问题。
你不要问我‘怎么办’，而是自己去解决你的‘怎么办’。
如果说，你被别人遗漏了，你被别人抛弃了。
那你也只能怪自己那‘该死的天真’和‘白痴的以为’。
两年了，社会大学教会我的事情，真的很多。
小时候的无知，我早就丢掉了。
现在的我，朋友说：“你变得好现实。”
对她而言，‘现实’这两个字不怎么可爱。
对我而言，‘现实’这两个字是我的保镖。
保镖不可爱也罢，最重要的是能保护我。
你在乎的友谊，对我来说很奢侈。
我对朋友都有着一定的信心，所以我都很放心。
戏剧化的故事，是没有营养的零食。
零食先是让你填满牙缝、上瘾、然后再逼你去看牙医的阴险家伙。
当我让你排列朋友，家人，男朋友，学业，钱财的时候。
我知道，你还是会犹豫朋友与家人间的抉择。
你藕断丝连，我却干净利落。
那就是我俩的差别。
如你所说，我失去了纯净的心去感受。
我确实不在乎很多事物，甚至会觉得那些都是多余的。
当你看见世界不再美好的时候，我想总有一天你会支持我的想法。
你不要问我‘怎么办’，而是自己去解决你的‘怎么办’。
如果说，你被别人遗漏了，你被别人抛弃了。
那你也只能怪自己那‘该死的天真’和‘白痴的以为’。
两年了，社会大学教会我的事情，真的很多。
小时候的无知，我早就丢掉了。
现在的我，朋友说：“你变得好现实。”
对她而言，‘现实’这两个字不怎么可爱。
对我而言，‘现实’这两个字是我的保镖。
保镖不可爱也罢，最重要的是能保护我。
你在乎的友谊，对我来说很奢侈。
我对朋友都有着一定的信心，所以我都很放心。
戏剧化的故事，是没有营养的零食。
零食先是让你填满牙缝、上瘾、然后再逼你去看牙医的阴险家伙。
当我让你排列朋友，家人，男朋友，学业，钱财的时候。
我知道，你还是会犹豫朋友与家人间的抉择。
你藕断丝连，我却干净利落。
那就是我俩的差别。
如你所说，我失去了纯净的心去感受。
我确实不在乎很多事物，甚至会觉得那些都是多余的。
当你看见世界不再美好的时候，我想总有一天你会支持我的想法。
Tuesday, 8 January 2013
我不是讨厌
有时候，跟白痴的人说多了，自己也就快变白痴了。
那家伙，究竟是什么问题，我真的不想知道。
也许，脑残是唯一能解决所有问题的答案。
虽然不同国籍，可是我也是个人，跟你一样会感觉到痛心、伤心。
为何，你说话总是不用脑袋，还是你根本就没脑？
心好难受，心情掺杂着苦苦的味道，我该怎么做才能消化掉
心，早已受了伤。
复原，似乎不太可能。
一道道的疤痕，是难以完全痊愈的伤口。
那家伙，究竟是什么问题，我真的不想知道。
也许，脑残是唯一能解决所有问题的答案。
虽然不同国籍，可是我也是个人，跟你一样会感觉到痛心、伤心。
为何，你说话总是不用脑袋，还是你根本就没脑？
心好难受，心情掺杂着苦苦的味道，我该怎么做才能消化掉
心，早已受了伤。
复原，似乎不太可能。
一道道的疤痕，是难以完全痊愈的伤口。
Monday, 7 January 2013
Sunday, 6 January 2013
无助
一夜无眠的夜晚，今日的折腾。
今日，我一直心不在焉，做什么事都提不起劲来。
很想做，可是我却不知该从何处开始。
没有好的开始，那结束更加不用说了。
好讨厌毫无头绪的感觉，很讨厌很讨厌，超级讨厌。
没心做，是我现在最大的问题。
功课堆在一边，该怎么写，又是个问题。
肚子叽里咕噜，却不是因为肚子饿。
我只知道早上的一杯牛奶搞到我泻了一整天。
功课被我丢在一旁，完全没有想碰它的意思。
肚子拼命地响呀响的，吵死也烦死。
功课没碰到，但我却拼命追厕所跑。
四个字，真是要命。
今日，我一直心不在焉，做什么事都提不起劲来。
很想做，可是我却不知该从何处开始。
没有好的开始，那结束更加不用说了。
好讨厌毫无头绪的感觉，很讨厌很讨厌，超级讨厌。
没心做，是我现在最大的问题。
功课堆在一边，该怎么写，又是个问题。
肚子叽里咕噜，却不是因为肚子饿。
我只知道早上的一杯牛奶搞到我泻了一整天。
功课被我丢在一旁，完全没有想碰它的意思。
肚子拼命地响呀响的，吵死也烦死。
功课没碰到，但我却拼命追厕所跑。
四个字，真是要命。
Genesis [chapter 1:26-30]
[chapter 1:26-30]
26 Then God said, "Let us make man in our image, in our likeness, and let them rule over the fish of the sea and the birds of the air, over the livestock, over all the earth, and over all the creatures that move along the ground."
27 So God created man in his own image, in the image of God he created him; male and female he created them.
28 God blessed them and said to them, "Be fruitful and increase in number; fill the earth and subdue it. Rule over the fish of the sea and the birds of the air and over every living creature that moves on the ground."
29 Then God said, "I give you every seed-bearing plant on the face of the whole earth and every tree that has fruit with seed in it. They will be yours for food.
30 And to all the beasts of the earth and all the birds of the air and all the creatures that move on the ground--everything that has the breath of life in it--I give every green plant for food.” And, it was so.
Prayer of today:
" Dear Father, I'm tired for the workload I have in school. I'm bored of taking all these alone. I can feel that my heart is over pumping now. I'm not sure how long will I be lived on, but do keep my breath as per normal because I wanted to fill my dreams with different colors. Dear Father, you are a painter whom have painted the earth with beautiful colors. Please, draw and color my life too for I wanted to have an extraordinary life. In the name of Jesus, Amen."
26 Then God said, "Let us make man in our image, in our likeness, and let them rule over the fish of the sea and the birds of the air, over the livestock, over all the earth, and over all the creatures that move along the ground."
27 So God created man in his own image, in the image of God he created him; male and female he created them.
28 God blessed them and said to them, "Be fruitful and increase in number; fill the earth and subdue it. Rule over the fish of the sea and the birds of the air and over every living creature that moves on the ground."
29 Then God said, "I give you every seed-bearing plant on the face of the whole earth and every tree that has fruit with seed in it. They will be yours for food.
30 And to all the beasts of the earth and all the birds of the air and all the creatures that move on the ground--everything that has the breath of life in it--I give every green plant for food.” And, it was so.
Prayer of today:
" Dear Father, I'm tired for the workload I have in school. I'm bored of taking all these alone. I can feel that my heart is over pumping now. I'm not sure how long will I be lived on, but do keep my breath as per normal because I wanted to fill my dreams with different colors. Dear Father, you are a painter whom have painted the earth with beautiful colors. Please, draw and color my life too for I wanted to have an extraordinary life. In the name of Jesus, Amen."
How lucky am I
Couldn't have get myself into a deep sleep yesterday night.
Closed my eyes throughout the night, but, I know I never slept.
I woke up early in the morning, waiting.
I was waiting for the sun.
And, this is the song I heard this morning.
Sounds so soft and comfortable.
Closed my eyes throughout the night, but, I know I never slept.
I woke up early in the morning, waiting.
I was waiting for the sun.
And, this is the song I heard this morning.
Sounds so soft and comfortable.
- Blessed assurance, Jesus is mine;
Oh, what a foretaste of glory divine!
Heir of salvation, purchase of God,
Born of His Spirit, washed in His blood. - This is my story, this is my song,
Praising my Savior all the day long.
This is my story, this is my song,
Praising my Savior all the day long. - Perfect submission, perfect delight,
Visions of rapture now burst on my sight;
Angels descending, bring from above
Echoes of mercy, whispers of love. - Perfect submission, all is at rest,
I in my Savior am happy and blest;
Watching and waiting, looking above,
Filled with His goodness, lost in His love.
Saturday, 5 January 2013
Genesis [chapter 1:21-25]
[chapter 1:21-25]
21 So God created the great creatures of the sea and every living and moving thing with which the water teems, according to their kinds, and every winged bird according to its kind. And God saw that it was good.
22 God blessed them and said, "be fruitful and increase in number and fill the water in the seas, and let the birds increase on the earth."
23 And there was evening, and there was morning--the fifth day.
24 And God said, "let the land produce living creatures according to their kinds: livestock, creatures that move along the ground, and wild animals, each according to its kind." And it was so.
25 God made the wild animals according to their kinds, the live stock according to their kinds, and all the creatures that move along the ground according to their kinds. And God saw that it was good.
My prayer of the day:
"Dear Lord, You are the miracle, and You created the miracle. You returned me things I lost years ago and I would like to say thank you. You taught me a lesson. You closed the door and opened another for me. I know, You have a plan in me. No matter what, Lord please do not abandon me when I'm in desperate moments. Be with me, bless me with Your great love. In the name of Jesus, Amen."
21 So God created the great creatures of the sea and every living and moving thing with which the water teems, according to their kinds, and every winged bird according to its kind. And God saw that it was good.
22 God blessed them and said, "be fruitful and increase in number and fill the water in the seas, and let the birds increase on the earth."
23 And there was evening, and there was morning--the fifth day.
24 And God said, "let the land produce living creatures according to their kinds: livestock, creatures that move along the ground, and wild animals, each according to its kind." And it was so.
25 God made the wild animals according to their kinds, the live stock according to their kinds, and all the creatures that move along the ground according to their kinds. And God saw that it was good.
My prayer of the day:
"Dear Lord, You are the miracle, and You created the miracle. You returned me things I lost years ago and I would like to say thank you. You taught me a lesson. You closed the door and opened another for me. I know, You have a plan in me. No matter what, Lord please do not abandon me when I'm in desperate moments. Be with me, bless me with Your great love. In the name of Jesus, Amen."
Friday, 4 January 2013
I am a international student
一句无恶之语
却是我一而再，再而三流血的伤口
他的无心 他的有意
“hey, hey, international students, go wait another lift la."
都快两年了，我也应该习惯了的
可是我的心，总是很不听话 反正这也不是第一次了
我心自肚明他说的是事实
我确实是外地人
不过，我还是很受伤
他真的让我们很受伤
爸爸说得对，人不以不可爱 可是钱可爱就行了。
我只知道，过于在乎的心，只会让我更加难以喘气罢了。
却是我一而再，再而三流血的伤口
他的无心 他的有意
“hey, hey, international students, go wait another lift la."
都快两年了，我也应该习惯了的
可是我的心，总是很不听话 反正这也不是第一次了
我心自肚明他说的是事实
我确实是外地人
不过，我还是很受伤
他真的让我们很受伤
爸爸说得对，人不以不可爱 可是钱可爱就行了。
我只知道，过于在乎的心，只会让我更加难以喘气罢了。
他的屁确实是很臭，而且还浑身散发着垃圾的恶臭味。
不过，对我毫无恶害的垃圾，我又何必在乎？
反正垃圾终究就会被回收。
Genesis [chapter 1:16-20]
[chapter 1:16-20]
16 God made two great lights-- the greater light to govern the day and the lesser light to govern the night. He also made stars.
17 God set them in the expanse of the sky to give light on the earth,
18 to govern the day and the night, and to separate light from darkness. And God saw that it was good.
19 And there was evening, and there was morning--the fourth day.
20 And God said, "Let the water teem with living creatures, and let birds fly above the earth across the expanse of the sky."
Prayer for today:
"Dear Lord Jesus, You made us to live in the earth but not the great universe. Perhaps, there's always a reason behind, isn't? Or else, certainly I will not be having my lovely bed with me tonight. I tried to count stars but there's too many of them, which I don't even know where should I start counting. The stars shine weakly but beautiful, I wanted a life like stars too. Though weak but at least I can live out a beautiful life. Whisper me a hint to tell me where should I start. Send me angels and people who loves me because it's time for me to learn how to love. In the name of Jesus, Amen."
16 God made two great lights-- the greater light to govern the day and the lesser light to govern the night. He also made stars.
17 God set them in the expanse of the sky to give light on the earth,
18 to govern the day and the night, and to separate light from darkness. And God saw that it was good.
19 And there was evening, and there was morning--the fourth day.
20 And God said, "Let the water teem with living creatures, and let birds fly above the earth across the expanse of the sky."
Prayer for today:
"Dear Lord Jesus, You made us to live in the earth but not the great universe. Perhaps, there's always a reason behind, isn't? Or else, certainly I will not be having my lovely bed with me tonight. I tried to count stars but there's too many of them, which I don't even know where should I start counting. The stars shine weakly but beautiful, I wanted a life like stars too. Though weak but at least I can live out a beautiful life. Whisper me a hint to tell me where should I start. Send me angels and people who loves me because it's time for me to learn how to love. In the name of Jesus, Amen."
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认真一看，原来今天就是2013年1月14日。
真是个好数字、好日子啊。
可惜，这些日子离我太遥远了。
今天无意间看见一位朋友的status，
他说： “为何好日子都出现在单身以后？”
也许，之前的情人节呀，什么大日子啊你都双双俩俩甜蜜度过了。
所以现在的你只好自己一人孤单吞苦瓜。
认真一看，原来今天就是2013年1月14日。
真是个好数字、好日子啊。
可惜，这些日子离我太遥远了。
今天无意间看见一位朋友的status，
他说： “为何好日子都出现在单身以后？”
也许，之前的情人节呀，什么大日子啊你都双双俩俩甜蜜度过了。
所以现在的你只好自己一人孤单吞苦瓜。
Thursday, 3 January 2013
Genesis [chapter 1:11-15]
[chapter 1:11-15]
11 Then God said, "Let the land produce vegetation: seed-bearing plants and trees on the land that bear fruit with seed in it, according to their various kinds." And it was so.
12 The land produced vegetation: plants bearing seed according to their kind and trees bearing fruit with seed in it according to their kind. And God saw that it was good.
13 And there was evening, and there was morning--the third day.
14 And God said, "Let there be lights in the expanse of the sky to separate the day from the night, and let them serve as signs to mark seasons and days and years,
15 and let them be lights in the expanse of the sky to give light on the earth." And it was so.
Let this to be my prayer today:
"Dear Lord, you know what, I love apples. I wouldn't be able to taste it if apple trees failed to bear fruits. Because of You, I would be a disabled in the dark if You forgotten to separate the day from the night even though I have eyes that works well. You created a world which I can live in as per normal. How would the life be if I'm surviving in a world without light? Light is the hope, the sense of secures in me. No matter what, please keep this light be lighted because I'm normal only if I live in the world created by You. In the name of Jesus, Amen."
11 Then God said, "Let the land produce vegetation: seed-bearing plants and trees on the land that bear fruit with seed in it, according to their various kinds." And it was so.
12 The land produced vegetation: plants bearing seed according to their kind and trees bearing fruit with seed in it according to their kind. And God saw that it was good.
13 And there was evening, and there was morning--the third day.
14 And God said, "Let there be lights in the expanse of the sky to separate the day from the night, and let them serve as signs to mark seasons and days and years,
15 and let them be lights in the expanse of the sky to give light on the earth." And it was so.
Let this to be my prayer today:
"Dear Lord, you know what, I love apples. I wouldn't be able to taste it if apple trees failed to bear fruits. Because of You, I would be a disabled in the dark if You forgotten to separate the day from the night even though I have eyes that works well. You created a world which I can live in as per normal. How would the life be if I'm surviving in a world without light? Light is the hope, the sense of secures in me. No matter what, please keep this light be lighted because I'm normal only if I live in the world created by You. In the name of Jesus, Amen."
Wednesday, 2 January 2013
A heart of recognition
Always, I valued people based on the education level they received.
Please, I know I fail, failed to acquired the most basic rights what a human deserved for.
So, let this to be my prayer tonight:
"Dear Lord, please witness my growth, get me out from the stupidity for having such a stereotype and imbalance perception I have on others. Make me a better man. In the name of Jesus, Amen."
Please, I know I fail, failed to acquired the most basic rights what a human deserved for.
So, let this to be my prayer tonight:
"Dear Lord, please witness my growth, get me out from the stupidity for having such a stereotype and imbalance perception I have on others. Make me a better man. In the name of Jesus, Amen."
Genesis [chapter 1: 6-10]
Genesis
[ chapter 1: 6-10 ]
6 And God said, "Let there be an expanse between the waters to separate waters from waters."
7 So God made the expanse and separated the water under the expanse from the water above it. And it was so.
8 God called the expanse 'sky.' And there was evening, and there was morning--the second day.
9 And God said, "Let the water under the sky be gathered to one place, and let dry ground appear." And it was so.
10 God called the dry ground 'land,' and the gathered waters he called 'seas.' And God saw that it was good.
If there's no expanse between waters and waters, I will not be able to see blue sky with white clouds.
If there's no dry land and seas, I will not be able to run on the field and snorkelling in the seas.
Creations of God is just great. Be grateful.
[ chapter 1: 6-10 ]
6 And God said, "Let there be an expanse between the waters to separate waters from waters."
7 So God made the expanse and separated the water under the expanse from the water above it. And it was so.
8 God called the expanse 'sky.' And there was evening, and there was morning--the second day.
9 And God said, "Let the water under the sky be gathered to one place, and let dry ground appear." And it was so.
10 God called the dry ground 'land,' and the gathered waters he called 'seas.' And God saw that it was good.
If there's no expanse between waters and waters, I will not be able to see blue sky with white clouds.
If there's no dry land and seas, I will not be able to run on the field and snorkelling in the seas.
Creations of God is just great. Be grateful.
Sorry for the curse
Have you ever made a curse on others?
Either with or without intention, it's just isn't right.
What will happen if a curse has a real effect curse on people?
Be frank, I dare not to think beyond that.
As a student, often I heard complaints regarding specific lecturers.
Even me myself are not an exception though.
Would I be able to bear the complains if I were those lecturers?
No, I will never have make it.
Of course, the level of complaints varies from person to person.
This is the scale I used personally to put up a 'measure' on them:
'Great leh'
'Very good'
'Satisfying la'
'On average bah'
'Below average lo'
'Super Horrible leh'
'Seriously terrible lah'
'Walao A, damn lousy la'
'Owh, f*** la, damn sucks'
Have you noticed:
a. there's always a shorter word in describing a teacher I'm satisfied and happy with?
b. there's always a longer and rude word when I'm not happy with?
It's not true to be applied for everybody.
But, personally I did it.
Apparently I made certain criticism if I have great preference and bad words on people I'm least happy with though they're actually responsible in their teaching. In fact, they deserved to be respected though the way they deliver messages and knowledge isn't the way I like or I used to.
This is a shame if I gain knowledge from them but I never learn to stop criticising.
Dear Ms. B,
forgive me for being bad mouth months back when you was my mentor and leacturer of two modules of mine. Though I don't really meant to curse you, but I was wrong. Really sorry.
Either with or without intention, it's just isn't right.
What will happen if a curse has a real effect curse on people?
Be frank, I dare not to think beyond that.
As a student, often I heard complaints regarding specific lecturers.
Even me myself are not an exception though.
Would I be able to bear the complains if I were those lecturers?
No, I will never have make it.
Of course, the level of complaints varies from person to person.
This is the scale I used personally to put up a 'measure' on them:
'Great leh'
'Very good'
'Satisfying la'
'On average bah'
'Below average lo'
'Super Horrible leh'
'Seriously terrible lah'
'Walao A, damn lousy la'
'Owh, f*** la, damn sucks'
Have you noticed:
a. there's always a shorter word in describing a teacher I'm satisfied and happy with?
b. there's always a longer and rude word when I'm not happy with?
It's not true to be applied for everybody.
But, personally I did it.
Apparently I made certain criticism if I have great preference and bad words on people I'm least happy with though they're actually responsible in their teaching. In fact, they deserved to be respected though the way they deliver messages and knowledge isn't the way I like or I used to.
This is a shame if I gain knowledge from them but I never learn to stop criticising.
Dear Ms. B,
forgive me for being bad mouth months back when you was my mentor and leacturer of two modules of mine. Though I don't really meant to curse you, but I was wrong. Really sorry.
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